A Tribute to The Remarkable "Benjamin Button"

Okeoke, I need to vent out real quick.

Barusan menyaksikan sebuah masterpiece, a-one-of-a-kind movie yang yaampun bikin bahagia banget nemunya – dan sedikit menyesal ga nonton lebih awal padahal it has been around for a while. Truly rich and deep. Satu dari sedikit film yang bukan cuma “entartainment”, tetapi makanan untuk jiwa. During and after the movie I reflected much (more) on life, on birth, death, and love.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Born under unusual circumstances, Benjamin Button (Brad Pitt) springs into being as an elderly man in a New Orleans nursing home and ages in reverse. Twelve years after his birth, he meets Daisy, a child who flickers in and out of his life as she grows up to be a dancer (Cate Blanchett). Though he has all sorts of unusual adventures over the course of his life, it is his relationship with Daisy, and the hope that they will come together at the right time, that drives Benjamin forward.

Yak there the story goes, but it’s really more than that. The beauty of it can not be put into words. I strongly recommend it to all of you, deep thinker, life-reflector, night-owl kind of people. Go watch this precious gem immediately and find your thoughts dwell with it afterwards.

Thanks to David Fincher who directed the movie super beautifully. Soundtracknya menyatu dengan sempurna sama ceritanya, plotnya move quickly, character developmentnya peel perfectly, idenya original dan out of the box. Cukup detail juga, at least lebih detail dari most movies yang sedang beredar, walaupun masih jauh di bawah Amelie (the queen of detailed-little-things yang sangat top-notch). Durasi hampir 3 jam nggak kerasa, malah masih pengen lebih.

Sukses membombardir “hari nangis-nangis”ku. Maafkan Bu Risma, Bu Pudji, dan warga Surabaya besok kalau nemuin salah satu "personil" di aubade paduan suaranya berkantongmata bengkak saat membawakan lagu Jembatan Merah. Salahkan Mr. David, Brad Pitt, Cate Blanchett, atau siapapun yang terlibat dalam pembuatan film ini.

I honestly don’t remember crying this hard after watching a movie since Million Dollar Baby... or maybe Dancer in the Dark.. Or even Soul Surfer. Anyway, this is the kind of movie that stays with you, the kind that you will remember for a long time.

A heart worth training for

I want to be courageous, to live life to the fullest, to not be afraid of the world. I don't wanna be vain and stuck in my little comfort zones. I want to explore, to experience life, to be strong and overcome life as it is.

In contrast, I don't wanna be "hard", a person who has no feeling. I value an act of kindness, an act of love, an act of humanity above anything else. I want to be passionate. I want to help people around me, I want to do good to them. Bring lives to others as they bring life into me. Collect precious moments as I walk through this short life.

I guess what I'm trying to say is

I train my heart to be a soldier, but not cold like a stone.

I train my heart to be a fighter, but never bring any harm or grief to others.

I want my heart to be strong, but not hard.

I want my heart to be soft, but not fragile.

To bear heartaches with open heart in order to grow.

To be able to take harsh words, criticism, and explosion

but never - not once - do a thing to hurt others.

-infx

sudden bemo thoughts-

Uninvited Morning Thoughts

Pertama kalinya absen sekolah selama di Smala. Sudah hari kedua.

H-5 UAS. Rasanya sudah lama sekali ya tidak menyentuh buku. Maaf ya Ma Pa, pelajaran sekolah semakin terbengkalai. InsyaAllah akan dibenahi dalam waktu dekat.

Kepalaku ringan sekali rasanya, seperti berputar terus. Sakit di sekitar alis waktu mata melirik kanan-kiri-atas-bawah. Suhu badan 39derajat. Meriang, kalau dibuat jalan rasanya kayak lagi gempa.

“Berlibur” di rumah rasanya lumayan enak. Bisa jauh dari keramaian sejenak, cuti dari sekolah (dan tekanannya), otak tidak harus memikirkan orang lain dan pandangan mereka terhadapku setiap saat.

Tapi berlibur di rumah tidak bisa meredam suara pikiran-pikiran nakal di kepala. Ternyata berada di dalam kamar, sendirian, tanpa melakukan apa-apa itu bahaya. Suara-suara kecil tumbuh semakin keras dan menguasai diri. Rasanya lebih seperti bisikan iblis. Dan suara malaikat. Dan pemikiran karakter film favoritku. Dan kutipan-kutipan novel. Dan cetusan seseorang dalam mimpiku tadi malam. Dan suara temanku. Dan suara “teman”ku.

Biasanya nggak gini. Biasanya sendiri itu menentramkan, recharging.

Efek demam memang kuat sekali ya. Waktu TK selalu mengigau, meracau sambil menangis setiap kali demam. Hingga sekarang tidak jauh berbeda rupanya.

Yasudah kembali tidur saja. Semoga pikiran lebih tenang, lebih nggak jahat sama tuannya.